A family friend was generous enough to take photos of Jackson at 3 weeks old and we are so thankful to have these photos to look back on and show Jackson someday! As I write this post, Jackson is now 1 month old. The last month has gone by very quickly - parts of it are a total blur. Each day has its challenges and joys. I was told by friends that my emotions would be a series a "ups" and "downs," but I wasn't prepared for the reality of that. It's crazy how one day I feel like I've got this thing whole motherhood thing down and then other days feel like a chaotic disaster. Matt gets home from work at 5:30 in the evening and I am still wearing my pajamas, Jackson is crying and I've cried numerous times throughout the day. Those are the days that I wasn't prepared for. How can you be prepared for the challenges of breastfeeding and sleep deprivation? I have always been a 9 hours of sleep gal, so getting up in the middle of the night is hard. I also had no idea how difficult breastfeeding can be. I thought it would come naturally, but now that I am struggling with it and talking to other women - I am finding that many women have had struggles with breastfeeding as well. Despite the challenging parts of motherhood, the joys far outweigh the hard times. I look at Jackson's tiny fingers and toes and am in awe of this beautiful miracle from God. We are beyond blessed to have this healthy baby boy in our lives.
| A big thanks to Wes for taking these beautiful photos of us! |